I once was following my own agenda, Now I am giving Him complete control.
I grew up in the Church and accepted Jesus when I was a kid but in the last few years I just found my faith to be very inconsistent. I would go through spurts of wanting to give every part of me to the Lord, and then I'd go weeks or months where I think I can do it myself and that my plan is better. I don't think I've ever completely surrendered. I want to give my whole self to Him and I want Him to use me in whatever ways He sees fit. Complete surrender.
I am being baptized now because I have recently seen myself trying to "white knuckle" certain things in my life and have control. I want to recommit myself to Him by making that public. I believe there is power in baptism and I think it's a beautiful way to recommit your heart to the Lord. I want to completely let go of my own plan and idea that I have for my own life because God's is so much more powerful and perfect. What I ultimately want is to completely release and let go of my own ideas/plans I have for myself. I want a new start with God taking me wherever He needs me to be and doing whatever He needs me to do.