I once was caged. Now I am free.
I feel like God has done so much for me, especially in the last few years. Earlier this year I think I was losing who I was and started becoming a person I didn’t like at all. I was disrespecting my mom and hiding things from her and swearing a whole bunch. My family for the most part is religious. I attended Midwestern Christian Academy from 5th to 8th grade. That time at Midwest I learned a lot about God and my faith was restored for a while. But 8th grade was one of the hardest years for me. I had been depressed and internalized it and then I started to hurt myself by erasing my skin with my eraser. I was called into the principal's office and sent to get a psychiatric evaluation. I was then assigned a psychiatrist that I would meet with on a weekly basis. I thought it was helping but it was only at that moment. Later this year my depression came back. I got invited to be a part of a quinceanera for one of my friends so i decided to do it. The quince was filled with drama and so many changes had occured. I was getting annoyed because I was having my parents and grandparents take me there and from Bloomingdale that’s over an hour drive just to get there and not even practicing. So I told my friend that this was a waste of my time, I knew it was wrong of me but I couldn’t take it. Eventually that “friend” found out and started texting me incredibly hurtful things I had then written a suicide note and sent it to my friends via text. This time I was sent to a behavioral health program known as PHP for two weeks. It was during that program I started praying to God and reading my Bible more and more when I had the chance. Now I see a therapist and it helps out a lot. It was before I went to bed that I felt God talk to me and I give all the credit to God because I wouldn’t have gotten through all of that without him.