I once was someone who did not love and accept themselves. Now I love and accept myself because Jesus loves and accepts me.
God has been here for me for a very long time and I did ’t even know it. A couple of years after I got diagnosed with diabetes I became very depressed to a point where I was very suicidal and just gave up on life. So I started to drink and not take my insulin and I got severely sick. I would end up in the hospital in ICU every three or four months for multiple years, close to death. The doctors and my family were surprised that I was still alive. I did not know it was God who kept me alive each and every time. Then He gave me a little girl and I stopped drinking and felt happy…but not for long. Then the depression started to happen again, but this time there was no drinking involved. God kept giving me the strength to keep going and keep fighting for my daughters and I. Even when I lost my mom I thought I couldn’t go on. I’ve never felt pain like that before. There He was again letting me know it was okay. That my mom was with him, in no more pain, happy watching over her grandkids and me. He gave me a baby boy not long after that. A couple of days after my son was born a lot of things started to happen. My husband was an addict to drugs and my father needed a heart transplant. For years I had a husband and father who were fighting for their lives. No hope was in sight. But my husband got clean. There was still no hope for my dad. Then I started going to Mission thanks to my husband. He then was baptized. I started having faith. I started praying. I met people who I now call my family. They prayed for my dad and he got a heart transplant in November of 2018. All three of my kids love church love God and pray and have such strong faith for him. Something I’d never imagine. Now I am someone who has happiness. I am someone who can handle situations and cope with things without wanting to give up. My diabetes has been the best it has been in a long time, and my depression is under control. I am someone who loves myself and accepts myself just like I know Jesus has. I now know that I am a child of God and He will forever be my father and I will walk through life with god by my side every step of the way.