I once was relying on myself and others for fulfillment. Now I am fully relying on God.
I accepted Jesus as my Savior at two separate times when I was younger, just to make sure He knew I meant it, and I have been following Jesus ever since. Though my faith has always been extremely important to me, everyone has their own Achilles heel, and mine was desiring close relationships and friendships above desiring God…which led me to chasing after and being attracted to all the wrong kinds of people throughout my life. After many years of failed friendships and feeling rejected over and over again by both God and people, I became burned-out in all aspects of my life, this past year being the hardest on me. I did not realize until just a few weeks ago, how hard my heart had become, and how I have never fully given complete control of my life over to God, but instead tried to control other people and my life to my liking, which only led to heartbreak, frustration, and deep feelings of pain. So on April 17th 2019, a few days before Pastor Jon’s Easter message, which was very fitting, I laid face down on the floor of my room and gave full control of my life over to God for the very first time. I am beyond blessed that God brought me to Mission last July when He did, because without Him, my family, the few close friends I do have, and the friends that I made in Alpha, in Formation, and the Mission Kids Welcome Team ladies that I am delighted to be able to volunteer with…I don’t know where I would be right now in life. God allowed my heart to completely break, so that He could come in and piece it back together again, to not only heal me, but to shape me into the new and renewed Godly man who is standing in front of you today. I want to get baptized today to not only proclaim the love I have for Christ, but I want to give hope to others and let them know, that no matter who you are, what your age is, where you are in your faith, or what you’ve done or have gone through in your life…God can transform and change a person’s heart at anytime, like He did with mine. God’s in control. God’s got this.