"The Resistance" by Dawn Franceschina In the final days before Jesus was crucified, we read the account of Judas Iscariot betraying Jesus. Mark 14:10 states, “Then Judas Iscariot, one of the Twelve, went to the chief priests to betray Jesus to them.” For this Judas was paid 30 pieces of silver, which in modern day, would equate to approximately $4200.
It is easy for us to read this passage and say, “I would never have betrayed Jesus like this!” The reality is, that I betray Jesus every day. He asks me to give him the glory. Instead, I do things that glorify myself. He asks for me to use words that lift others up. Instead, I use words that lift myself up. He asks me to seek first His kingdom and His righteousness. Instead, I seek my own kingdom, seek to make my own choices, and seek to decide my life’s path.
And then, in conviction, I remember, it’s not about me.
And then I ask for forgiveness.
And then I repent.
And then, the next day, I stumble again.
And I wonder why I keep making the same mistakes over and over? Why do I keep betraying Jesus?
We see in Scripture that Judas betrayed Jesus for money, but I wonder if he did it for other reasons as well. Maybe he also did it to earn favor with others. Maybe he also betrayed Jesus for fame, to make his name known. Maybe he turned in Jesus because of peer pressure.
A wise pastor named John Ortberg once gave a message called “The Shadow Mission”. He stated that we all have a shadow mission in our lives, some hidden ambition that robs the glory of God and propels the mission of self. This wrong mission is often rooted in something that is unworthy, selfish, or dark. He described it as work that is on mission for God, but has a hidden “shadow mission” underneath that is self-serving or self-glorifying.
What is your shadow mission?
Do you love others, only if they love you in return?
Do you serve others, expecting it to be reciprocated in the future?
When you speak words of kindness, do you do it because you want people to like you?
Do you stray from your God-inspired mission to fulfill another mission for the purpose of extra rewards, like money, or praise?
Do you ignore promptings from God in order to maintain your sense of security?
What is your shadow mission…and is it worth 30 pieces of silver?
Whatever his motivation, I believe that Judas was on a shadow mission when he betrayed Jesus. I also believe that I am on a shadow mission when I am giving in to my own mission that glorifies myself.
Pray today to the Lord of Lords that your shadow mission would be revealed. Pray to our Heavenly Father for His forgiveness. Receive His grace and mercy, knowing that Christ’s death was enough.